Engaged!

I’m late as usual lol, but I am here! A very belated ‘Happy New Year’ greeting to you! Like many others, I’m really hopeful as we welcome in the new year 2021. One of the silver linings of last year was getting engaged! Tim proposed in October, and it’s been a whirlwind of excitement, family bonding, and wedding planning ever since.

Even though it’s been several months, I still can’t believe we’re getting married! Sometimes, I still feel like I’m not an adult yet (I’m baby!) - and over the past few months I’ve had my fair share of anxiety and sleepness nights wondering if and how things are going to change. Unlike many of my friends, I never moved out on my own after college. So, one of my biggest fears is leaving the comfort and safety of my parents’ home. I’ve always been a Daddy’s and Mommy’s girl, and never wanting to be far away from my parents, so not seeing them everyday will be a big adjustment for me. One of the hidden blessings from COVID and quarantine has been spending more time at home with my parents. I’ve even cried thinking about my dog - my poor dog! - will she even understand why I‘m not living with them anymore? Will she be upset?

“Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh.” - Genesis 2:24

I know that I can’t live with my parents forever, and that marriage is a good and right thing. When I was younger, every night before the start of a new school year, my dad would come in and say goodnight to me. I would say, “Daddy, I don’t want to start ____ grade!” I said it all throughout grade school, before all the years in high school, I even said it the night before I left for college. I’ve read about ‘post-engagement anxiety’, I just didn’t think it would ever happen to me.

One things that I’ve had to remember throughout this period, was the need to separate the anxiety and fear of the unknown from doubts and ‘second thoughts’ about marriage and my fiancé. Once you begin to feel fear about something unknown, you can very quickly associate it with the subject or collateral subjects of that fear.

All in all, I am so excited to be marrying my best friend, my rock, and pretty much the most wonderful man in the universe. For so long, we’ve talked about our future - what our home would look like, what our children would be like, how we hope our marriage to mold us and forge our testimony - and now those dreams are starting to come true!

Engaged!